Home for the Weekend

I’m sitting on a train writing this, watching the Philadelphia skyline go by in the window. This is why I take the train. It’s just so awesome going right through the heart of the city. I’m heading home for the weekend. Haven’t been home since Christmas, so I’m about due for a visit.

Today was probably one of the nicest days we’ve had this year. On my walk to work, I walked through the church cemetery. All the trees are flowering and there are like a million tulips blooming all over the place. (Oh man just went by the Robert Venturi houses on the river. They make me wanna watch some Always Sunny right about now. When the hell is that gonna come back. Anyway…) And they were cutting the grass this morning. Not a smell that you really get much, living in New York. It just totally set the tone for my whole day. I honestly didn’t do a ton of work today. We have a submission deadline on Friday, but so far we’re in pretty good shape. The three of us working on it have been busting our asses to get it done right and work out all the kinks, so we’re looking good at the moment.

We decided to take a long lunch and go to Stone Street since it was a nice day. I got a drink with lunch, which was great. I LOVE summer in NY! I also decided that morning that I needed sunglasses bad and I want them for Saturday since I plan on being outside for a while. So after lunch I took the train up to Soho to go get some Mosley Trades. I had the woman show me pretty much every pair. Haha. At one point she handed me a white pair, similar to the ray ban wayfarers. I laughed when I looked in the mirror. She was like, yeah that’s probably a good sign that they’re not the right pair for you. Umm yeah. I eventually found a pair that I really liked and I’m so excited about them. Even though they’re way more than I should be spending on sunglasses, who cares. I love em. And what’s the point of making money if you don’t enjoy yourself once in a while. I don’t spend that much all the time, so every once in a while it’s cool to drop a little cash. Haha.

Not a whole lot goin on boy-wise. Haven’t talked to Boy 2 in a day or two. He should be more aggressive. I don’t get it. The last couple times I’ve talked to him, it felt like kind of a struggle to get anything out of him. I hate that. It’s really not that hard to be somewhat responsive and engaging in a conversation. My biggest pet peeve is signing off or going away without saying goodbye or giving any hint that you’re going. Majorly annoying.

Well my stop is coming up. Better gather up my things. Just finished watching Nick and Norah’s Infinite Playlist on my computer. Perfect train movie. If you haven’t seen it, definitely check it out. It’s no oscar winner, but it’s a cute story. And you gotta love anything shot entirely in New York.

Just Getting In

I am so bad at keeping up with this. Not a whole lot is going on right now. At least, I don't think there's anything that exciting. Just busy with work as usual. It's 1 am right now and I've only been home for about 15 minutes. Had to submit a rough draft of our final submission for the project I'm on.

We actually got some very good news at work the other day. We won a huge huge huge masterplan competition in Korea. We beat several other offices. We all got called into the conference room at the end of the day last tuesday. Of course we were all thinking, oh great more bad news or something. So, no one was especially enthused about getting together. We all knew that it wasn't for a champagne party like the ones we used to have every other week. Then our boss comes in and says "These are tough economic times... but we have just won the biggest competition in the world, Korea!" Then they broke out the champagne. Lol. Of course, I had to get back to work because we had a deadline that night. Go figure. But the next night, they treated us all to open bar at a bar in Tribeca. It was a wednesday, so we were pretty much the only people in the whole place. But, we all had a good time. Definitely a good pick-me-up for the office.

In other news, Boy 2 and I still haven't been able to get together. I thought we were going to this weekend. It was so nice out too. But somehow by the time Saturday came around, we hadn't made any concrete plans and when I texted him, he didn't respond. On Sunday, he said he was at work. I don't know why that wasn't something he could have told me. We ended up just chatting online for a bit that night and that was that. This weekend I'll be going home, so won't happen then either. Wish I were one of those people who got out of work at 6 and had the rest of the evening to do stuff. I'm lucky if I make it home by 8. Sigh...

Wearing Thin

I just got home from work. It's quarter to midnight. Not good. I've been having to work non stop lately. It sucks. Today I just was not in the mood for it and was noticeably grumpy all day. I think I'm still a little pissed off that we had to work on Easter this weekend. We managed to get a day off on Saturday (I should feel fortunate, no?) and had to go in on Sunday. It was so ridiculous though because Saturday, it rained all day and then Sunday was super nice and sunny. It just didn't make sense to me. I did get a lot done, but I would have rather just gone in on Saturday if I had the choice. The most frustrating thing is that we're supposedly "in production" right now. The design was supposed to have been frozen like a week or two ago, yet, even today, they're still making minor changes. Granted, they are minor, but even little things end up affecting like 5 different drawings that I have to then go in and update one by one. Such a pain. I really don't like having to wait on others so that I can do my stuff. I'm much better when you give me a deadline and then leave me alone.

Anyway, I need to get to bed. Not a whole lot of news to report on the dating front. Haven't heard from the guy from the other weekend. I figure he didn't really see much their either. Oh, I do think I have a potential date with a guy I started talking to again. I think I called him Boy 2 way way back in November. I randomly emailed him and he's been IMing me everytime he's on now. Last night we did a little pic trading which was fun. He's very cute. And kind of a smartass which is definitely my type. So, whenever work cools down, hopefully I can finally meet him in person.

Where to go from here...

So, the date went well enough. I'm not really sure exactly how I felt about the whole thing. The whole day, I was nervous. So, by the time the date came around, I was kinda feeling sick. I think it was just one of those crappy days if you know what I mean. I meet him at the place where we agreed on Union Sq (not my fav part of the city, but whatever) and he was fiddling with his phone and asked if I knew anything about blackberries. Of course, I don't, so we go in and try to find a seat. The place was packed and there were no seats for people just staying for drinks. So we went to another bar next door and eventually found a little table to sit at. At that point, my stomach was still being moody, so I just decided to stick to water. (Lame, I know, but it's all I could stomach at that point.) We talked, and he was very nice. Just not sure if there was a real spark there. I just don't know if I had all that much fun on the date. It was fun meeting someone new and all, but I just didn't feel a real connection there like I had on the dates I've gone on before. There were a few pauses in the conversation too, which I haven't had happen before. Nothing really awkward, but it just didn't flow all that well or something.

After he finished his drink and had a little appetizer, we talked for a little longer and then headed out. He wanted to find a store so he could get his phone fixed so I said I'd be up for finding one with him. We talked along the way which seemed to go a lot better. My stomach wasn't as upset anymore, and I think I was starting to get a little more comfortable with him. We eventually got the phone thing figured out, and he had to go meet up with some friends. We did a hug goodbye and I walked him to his train.

All in all, he was a nice guy and I enjoyed talking to him, but just not sure if he's the right guy. I texted him after the date saying I had fun and we should get together again. Later he texted with pretty much the same response. I think if he wants to pursue something, I'd be down for meeting up again. Who knows, maybe something will click. But at this point, I'm just gonna hold off on going after him. What do you guys think. Is there like a protocol if you're just not that into him?

Someone new

Leaving in 5 min to meet a guy for a drink. I really think I have some kind of social anxiety or something because I haven't been hungry all day and have just felt kind of sick. I know as soon as the date is over though, I'll be totally fine. My mind just makes me feel this way and I know it. And it's not like I don't have fun on the date or can't talk to people, I'm just really anxious about something. I really need to look into this. Any thoughts, or does everyone get kind of anxious when they go on dates?