Excited

Sorry I haven't posted all week. Work has been crazy with this deadline we have tomorrow. I've been stuck at my desk until midnight every night this week.

It particularly sucks because I've been trying to bump this date up to drinks one night this week. But it just wasn't possible. So far, I'm really liking this guy. We email each other all day long. I think we're both the type of person who has to get the last word in. Like, if someone ever emails me, I always have to respond even if it's just something trivial. We're both really excited for Saturday. I just hope we don't get our hopes up too high, although, from what I know about him so far, I think we'll have a lot of fun together. My only worry is how to make it date fun and not just friend fun. Flirting has never been my forte really, so I hope he's more agressive than I am.

We're going to brunch Saturday afternoon at this place that has unlimited champagne with brunch. Could be risky considering I don't want to be wasted from the get go. I'd rather end on drinks. But hey, I'm just excited to finally meet the guy.

Anyway. That's what's goin on. Time to crash. Friday is FINALLY here.

Something on the Horizon

I have to work this weekend. Ugh. I don't have to work the entire weekend necessarily, but I need to go in for a couple hours each day at least. I'm thinking I'll go in tomorrow afternoon and then Sunday evening. I really haven't had to work on a weekend in a while though, so really, it's not the end of the world.

In other news, next weekend I'm going on a date. I'm pretty excited about it. It's another guy I met online. We've been sending each other emails back and forth, and he seems really fun and amusing. He's pretty darn cute too. And a very good dresser. Always a plus. I've been facebook stalking him of course and haven't found anything that would be a deal breaker. Not really sure what we're doing yet. But probably getting a little lunch or a drink or something. It's just a first date, so probably something during the day. If anyone has any first date suggestions (that won't break the bank), definitely leave a comment.

Making an Attempt

I really need to figure out how to be more aggressive when it comes to pursuing guys. Well, I know how to be more aggressive, but I guess I'm just not comfortable with it yet. I manage to meet guys online and strike up a conversation over the course of several emails, but eventually they just sort of fizzle out. At some point someone needs to ask the other on a date, but I just never go there on my own. I've been a shy, quiet guy my whole life though, so really, this isn't a huge surprise. But, if I ever want to find a guy, I'm going to have to up my game, which, considering I have pretty much NO game, has nowhere to go but up. I've been talking to this guy online the last couple days. I think he's pretty attractive from the pictures on his profile. Seems to have a good sense of style. Funny. He gave me his number to text him, but I'm not really sure what to text to someone whom I hardly know. I would like to though, just because he kind of went out on a limb with giving it to me after only a couple messages between us. I think I might want to go out to lunch or something with him at some point. Could be fun... Hopefully this time I'll actually be able to finish my meal. I can barely finish my food on a regular day, let alone on a date. It's all nerves and being anxious about meeting a new person whose personality I'm not really used to. Always fun. Luckily I have the opposite problem when it comes to drinking. Awkward lulls in the conversation make me drink more rather than less, which, I suppose, can be considered either good or bad. Since my tolerance is pretty low lately, it's probably not that great in the long run.

Last night I went up to Union Square to the Strand to hear my boss give a little talk for a small crowd. It was pretty interesting. I always enjoy hearing him talk because he goes off on all these weird tangents. And even though he's in the office everyday, it's not like we really get much interaction with him. Afterwards, a coworker asked me if I wanted to grab a drink. I guess I was feeling in a generous mood, because, even though I was hungry and had about 4 hrs of shows recording to watch at home, I said yes, figuring it would only be a drink. Well it ended up being 2 drinks for me, and somehow 4 for my friend. I managed to get a little buzz from the 2, but I knew I'd wake up with a headache in the morning if I had any more. So I cut myself off. Plus, I'm poor, and drinking in New York is SOO expensive. I'll have to start drinking at home more often. You know, just to get my tolerance up. Summer is on it's way sooner or later.

Sorry this is such a boring post. I think I just felt like typing, haha.

Close Encounter

So yesterday I took the ferry from Wall St to Ikea so my roommate could carry some table home he wanted to buy. But on the way back, we were walking up Water St and I passed this guy on the sidewalk who looked really familiar. It took me a second or two until I realized it was Chad White. I'm pretty sure it was. He was wearing a nice dark coat and no sunglasses, so I got a pretty good look at his face even if it was more of a glance.

Anyway, pretty cool seeing someone like that just walking alone down here. I don't know what he would be doing on Water St. There's nothing down there. Especially on a Sunday. Wish I had been walking alone so I could pull the "hey do I know you from somewhere line". Haha. Like I'd ever be that confident. I'm pretty sure I hadn't shaved for like 4 days and didn't do anything to my hair that morning, so I probably looked like shit. But hey, it's Ikea. In Brooklyn. I wasn't expecting anything so to speak. Haha.

Coasting

Does anyone else just get tired of the life they're living? Not that I don't like my life, but I think I'm getting into a rut and playing it a little too safe lately. I think the weather may have a lot to do with it though. These last couple weeks have just been so damn cold, that I haven't wanted to do anything. This weekend, which actually wasn't that cold, I literally couldn't think of a reason that I needed to leave my apartment on Sunday. Sure, I could go do stuff, but the things I actually felt like doing would have cost money, which I'm trying really hard to save right now. I think the whole lack of job security thing has just kind of put a damper on the last couple weeks. My life just feels very cautious at the moment, like I'm trying to play it a little too conservatively or something.

I'm almost envious of my friends who got laid off in some ways. They're heading in new and exciting paths that I'm sure when they look back on it, they'll be really glad that they had that push to change gears. I know that I'll be changing gears eventually though. I still have grad school to go back to, and that'll afford me the chance to potentially go down some new roads. I've always wanted to work in Europe, and I definitely think I will at some point. Coming to New York though, I just feel so at home. It would be hard to just pick up and leave with out some intermediate step or something.

On a side note, I'm such a TV geek. LOST this week was just awesome. Awesome! Some people might not have been as excited by it, but I'm currently watching Season 1 on DVD, so it's been on my mind the last couple days. Last year, when I moved to New York, I was staying with friends on their couch. They happened to all be watching Season 2 on DVD when I got there, so I was pretty much forced to start watching. Didn't really have any way to get away from it. Haha. So, I hadn't seen Season 1 and half of 2. But, having watched everything since then, it is still so much fun watching the older episodes. You pick up on a lot of stuff that probably made absolutely no sense if you were watching it from the start. I think I'm still just overly excited from tonight's episode. Sorry for boring anyone.